There isn't a single person in this world who can look into the mirror and go "Fantastic! I love the way I look! There isn't a thing I'd like to change".
We would all like to change one thing or another about our appearance. Say a smaller nose, bigger eyes, bigger breasts, flatter stomach and so the list goes on. However, not everyone is so troubled by their flawed appearance that they actually want to do something about it and change the way they look be it via simpler ways such as makeup and exercise or through slightly less common and more intimidating measures like cosmetic surgery.
Having undergone one such cosmetic procedure about six months ago, I guess I can say I was too troubled for comfort about a flaw I had perceived in my appearance....the size and shape of my breasts.
I have always been very conscious about my looks, I love to dress up and although one of the popular notions is that "Looks don't get you anywhere....they're superficial and not important....Beauty isn't skin-deep...blah....blah". I firmly believe that knowing she looks like a million bucks can do wonders to a woman's psyche, her confidence levels and self-esteem both in her personal as well as work life. The modern woman wants to look her best 24/7 and in today's world where everything has a price, if there's a way by which money can get you something that "god" and nature failed to gift you with, y not go ahead and get it? What's stopping anyone?
People say looks are insignificant...you're gonna get old...you are gonna loose your looks...they ain't gonna stay with you forever. But when you're young and looking good gives you a kick, if something as "insignificant" as a flaw in your appearance becomes a significant cause for your being unhappy and a safe solution is right under your nose, you would have to be of below average intelligence to ignore it.
In no way am I trying to justify letting your flawed looks bother you too much or going under the knife to change this and that, but I believe the bottom line is to live a happy life and if anything is a hindrance to that, but can be uprooted without hurting anyone, it should be done.
It was with a lot of apprehension that I went to meet Dr.Surindher for the very first time. I had never discussed my problem with anyone before and was anxious about several things such as letting someone see my flaws for real for the very first time, the pain involved in surgery, the cost of surgery, my family's reaction to this, etc.
However, Dr.Surindher was very professional and put me at ease very soon after I walked into his chamber. Before examining my breasts, he gave me an overview of the breast augmentation procedure explaining the different kinds of implants, the types of incisions, the expected results,the likely risks involved, common myths about the procedure, etc. I was fascinated by the amount of information he gave me. There was so much I hadn't known, although I had done some research myself about the procedure.I asked him a few questions about the surgery and what happens thereafter and got enlightening answers.
He then examined my breasts, made me try on some sample implants so that we could decide on the appropriate size for me. He also explained to me very clearly in what way the appearance of my breasts would change after implantation. One of the main problems with my breasts was that I had flatness on the upper side of my breasts as compared to the lower side where I was a little fuller. As a result, I've always had to wear slightly busty bra's to give me a fuller look. Dr.Surindher told me that implants would give me a good rise on the upper side of my breasts and also enhance the projection of my breasts to give me a fuller look. After a few trials, my asking some questions and stuff, we decided on a size and I was told I'd have to take up some routine tests before deciding to proceed with surgery. Dr.Surindher had also penned down details about the procedure so that I could review them and perhaps come back with more questions later.
Hence after a very satisfactory first visit, I made up my mind and decided to go ahead with the surgery. Just a few routine blood tests and I was back at the hospital where the physician declared me fit for surgery. Surprisingly, I was hardly nervous the morning I was to undergo surgery. I was thrilled actually 'coz I had never undergone surgery before and was curious about various things including anaesthesia. Once I was wheeled into the OT however, I was completely relaxed and the staff there were very cheerful and amicable and made it seem like I was there to have some fun.
Anaesthesia was hardly disturbing and when I came to after like I don't know how many hours, I was in hell. I don't know if it was just my extremely low threshold for pain or what but yes, I was hurting terribly. I was unable to move any part of my body. I was quite confused actually 'cos I had read women don't go through much pain and are up and about in like 48 hours after breast augmentation.
My breasts felt like lead and my back and arms were rendered immobile. It was sometime in the afternoon when I woke up from surgery and I knew I had to wait at least another couple of hours before I could see Dr.Surindher and ask him why I was in so much pain. I was given strong painkillers and sedatives for three days and while they did ease the pain a little, when the effects wore off after a few hours, I would get all impatient and desperate for relief once again. What bogged me down most was I was unable to leave my bed for almost four days after surgery despite Dr.Surindher constantly pushing me to get up, move my arms, take a walk, etc. I don't know if it was because this was my first surgical experience or due to my low tolerance for pain, I felt more agonized every time I was urged to move around. While I understood that constantly trying to move around would definitely ease the pain and make me more comfortable,it was simply too difficult.
I remember feeling like a school girl at one point of time when I started dreading Dr.Surindher's visits 'cause I knew he'd pull me up from bed and urge me to walk around and try moving my arms. He had begun to be more stern with me 'cause I was always refusing to leave my bed out of fear of pain. I think it was on the fourth day after surgery that I finally decided I couldn't do this alone and asked my mom to come over. She did and I don't know if it was the work of that magic wand all mothers have or what but I felt instantly better after she arrived and showed tremendous progress both physically and psychologically within 24 hours.
The next time Dr.Surindher came to visit me, he was very happy because I was up and walking around pretty effortlessly. I was immediately taken off the strong painkillers and was put on some mild tablets and antibiotics instead. On the fifth day,when I left the hospital,I hardly felt any pain,just a little tightness in my breasts. I had started wearing a supportive bra on the fourth day itself and that made me feel better.
Before I underwent surgery, Dr.Surindher had also explained to me what kind of bra's I should wear to ensure that my breasts are well supported. For a week after I was discharged, I stayed home, took some mild painkillers and antibiotics and kept myself as active as I could. By then I was pretty much able to indulge in my everyday activities and at the end of two weeks I felt well enough to travel by myself to visit Dr.Surindher again. This time, Dr.Surindher taught me how to massage my breasts regularly for the next 6 months and also gave me some creams to lighten the surgical scars under my breasts.
As for the way my breasts looked two weeks after surgery,the projection was certainly enhanced,my breasts were bigger and there was a good rise on the upper side of my breasts(not the flatness I had before) but since a pretty big implant had been fitted into me, my skin was all tented which gave my breasts more of a cone-shaped look rather than rounded fullness. However, Doctor told me that with regular massaging over the next 6 months the breasts will eventually fill up and take on a fuller look.
It has now been about 6 months since I underwent surgery and although I can't say I have been perfectly regular with my massages (twice everyday,mornings n evenings...it ain't easy :-) ), I have carefully followed Dr.Surindher's instructions and have been using the scar-lightening creams he gave me and have visited him for periodical examinations and the progress has been great. Like he said, within a couple of months after I began massaging, my breasts started losing their tented look and took on a rounder, fuller shape.The scars have become way lighter than they were before and will continue to fade over time is what I've been told.
The truth is I'm a much happier person today than I've ever been before. It has been a great relief to ditch the busty,uncomfortable bra's I used to wear before. The surgery and the entire process of healing and development had been a life-altering experience for me and the results were exhilarating. The way my body looks now has done wonders to my self-esteem and confidence levels and this has had a positive impact on both my professional and personal life.
Considering I had several apprehensions about undergoing the surgery and was in hell a lot of pain once i did, was it all worth the trouble??? Hell yeah!!
I'm sure Dr.Surindher can never really completely understand what a big difference this has made to my life. To me, this is the best decision I have ever made and if I had been able to do it sooner, I would have. I feel complete now and absolutely wonderful and one can't put a price on that!!
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Dr.Surindher : - I would like to thank KS for this write up to help other patient's understand the procedure and be of help to other people who might be considering such an option.
The reason I asked her to write about it because this is the patient's point of view. I might write and explain a lot but, when it comes from the patient herself, then the whole experience is different.
She has been a wonderful patient and has been very patient even with my firmness at time understanding that it was for her own good. So as always, I once again take the opportunity to thank all my patients and for her article, especially KS.
